Planning ahead

It is again, time to plan something, plan my schedule back to something else. Nowadays, honestly I don’t do anything according to my schedule, so I missed and late on some house work and workshop, I hate the feeling now, the feeling of wasting my time and others time especially. And why am I still here now? Cause I did not follow my schedule again.

This is holidays, after 4 months studying, this is the holiday I’ve been waiting for when the semester started, but then, it doesn’t mean I can sleep late at night too, but I still doing so for no reason Although I’ve been really really bored out when studying, keeping myself in a small room, but I think I’d used to this situation, some people start calling me a “Home-Boy” in a bad way But I don’t mind though, a “Home-Boy” can be like me is something to proud of though, I mean I earn money and spend money at home, who the heck can do this here?!

Anyway, there are some sudden project, well, a project changes for precise, but I think this project, the new and rearranged project will WORK, and I’m going to make it work like magic!

Messing around now

Holidays always make me mess around with my schedule and life. Suddenly I have no direction on what to do and what not to do, I just do whatever I think it is fine for me now, so my time table and everything is a mess now, don’t ask why.

Last night I sleep at 5.00am which is very very rare for me since I started this semester, now I’m in the middle of the night again, which I have no idea what to do so I logged in here to blog with my mood! Heh, it’s been quite some times since I last logged in here

Anyway, I just installed this Macromedia Flash MX version 7.0 which I wanted to master it now, but I have no direction, either master the web developing or just simply animation. Cause both are going to take a long time to master it, for now I tried to make some animation, which is very very time consuming! Every frame every second every movement need to adjust Or if I go for web developing, I will need to get more and more ActionSCript knowledge or maybe not Whatever it is, I’ll try to make at least one animation first and then go for web developing.

It’s middle of the night now, tomorrow morning and afternoon I have a schedule to do something, but I don’t think I can do it on morning, afternoon is a must, as I’ve promised my boss to go Ok, good night for myself and hopefully I can wake up in the morning as well

Am I doing great with what I have

I always ask myself this question in a period of time. To upgrade myself or to remind myself or my ability on something. But everytime when I asked myself this question, I don’t know how to answer in a more precise way, because there are always good and bad, and bad are more than good though.

I’m still looking for the reason of being that bad, I don’t think it caused by the laziness I have with me though, although I’m lazy, but I tried my best to make it perfect, as perfect as possible from my ability and my finance. But still thing doesn’t goes the way I want. Well, it’s the fact that thing don’t go the way one’s want, but to change is how one survive in this world.

It’s the challenge that makes a person growth, but it is also the reason one’s falls, of course I don’t want to fall because of this, but hell, how to challenge 24/7/365 for the rest of my life? Although planning for a less challenge for the future is the key and the dream of everyone, but the challenge before head is the biggest obstacle, how to over come it?

My idea, over come it as it is. I have no idea what I’m talking here, kind of in the mood now, but it doesn’t mean I’m going to give up anything, instead, I think I should take more initiative and innovative way to over come all the obstacles.